Tracys-World

2011-12-11T13:14:00.001-06:00

Hi all

Wow its been a while since I have checked my site. Sorry about that its been crazy with work and personal life. Just an update I have started Spiro to help in my transition so of course loosing your testosterone causes all kinds of weird thing like no energy and wanting to eat all the time. Arrgg.

I’m still at 6Mg of estrogen and 300mg of Spiro, I tired an new med called Motilium 10mg it for stomach issues but the side effects help in lactation and breast growth. I took it for about 4 weeks and never started lactating but that really was not the goal it was more for breast growth and size. Draw backs to this were stomach issues or at least for me. But overall I did get some size from it and they seem to perm.

Planning another cycle next month but other than the new meds been doing really well. My thighs and butt have increased in weight as well my mental attitude is so laid back. If my butt keeps this up i will need new Jeans.

Have not been shopping lately as I’m good with Jeans and tops. No new lingerie either :-( but looking for a cardigan, I bought one and it was way too small.. It fit my youngest daughter and that was frustrating. I’m always cold and that is part of the hormones. Any suggestions would be helpful.

Not much else to report other then HRT and living life.

Adult effects of Hormones, Do not read if a minor

2011-09-02T09:32:00.004-05:00

Adult stuff about hormones and changes.

Ok I have had some questions about hormones and the effects they are having on my body so I thought I would jot some notes on the effects and beware they are adult in nature.

First off hormones are dangerous and can kill you so please ladies be careful and I would get your blood check on a normal basis as well get with your doctor to help with this. I mean it you can die from these.

I have been on Hormones / herbs for a number of years but in the last 3 Months been on a normal schedule and had enough of a supply to keep my levels of a normal female. My amounts will differ than yours so do not take the amount I do. I use 6Mg thru out the day 2Mg each time. I do not use any test blockers as they cause me problems but my levels of estrogen VS Test are a normal female levels. Which is what I want.

My breast have grown and the areole has also increased, My skin is so soft its all most too soft. I have lost most of my muscle mass and have gotten flabby thats the reason for the P90X to get rid of the flab but yet keep the body going.

I use to smoke and now I’m a none smoker as smoking and Hormones are even more dangerous than just the hormones alone.

Rear is a little bigger as well my thighs but it takes years for the rear to get huge. Biggest changes have been down below. My balls are shrinking and yet my cock is still 8 inches so it looks kind weird. I try to have an orgasm at least once a week and my spooge is totally clear. Orgasm feeling is completely different meaning its a total body rush not just a organ feeling. My mind races every time and its a wild ride.

My sexual desire has dropped major time and have to almost force myself to orgasm but once there Wow its amazing. Body hair has been reduced and I only shave my legs once or twice a week now. I was told that hormones will not effect the facial hair but for me it has as all body and face hair has slowed down. My hair on my head has increased.

Below is the brand of Estrogen that I use. I do not use Pills as they are hard on the liver and i do enjoy a few cocktails so I stick to the Gel instead of pills and I would inject estrogen but I hate needles so gel the only thing I will use.

Depending on the time of day I get these rush feeling of femininity and feel like such a girl at other times I just feel normal.. I do not have any type of depression that some girls feel. I have no aggression anymore and really would rather walk away from a fight then to mix it up with someone. Even my TV watching has changed meaning my taste in what I watch has changed. Less man shows more about the female drama is fun.

I hope I touched on some of the changes for me.. If you have any other questions please drop me a note. I will try to post a few pics soon but want to loose this flab. Again ladies go to your doctor and do not self medicate..

Tank tops

2011-09-02T09:08:00.004-05:00

Hello all,

Well its been a hot summer ouch.. I live in Texas and people here really do not even want to go outside. I picked up a few of these cute Tanks from my fav place. They are sexy and yet look good. If I go to the mall people stare but who cares my breast stand up now and I’m on full hormones I feel so good. Even without a bra they stand up and I will take some photos soon to show everyone.

A Tank and the previous Jeans I look hot except my face is still not passing. I had to shave my armpits and if you ever have tried this its not fun. I had too when wearing a spaghetti strap tops.

As for other clothing not much a few other t-shirts but my biggest focus has been the hormones and weight loss as the Hormones will cause weight gain. Or more of flab look. I have to allow for some as breast tissue to grow but at the same time keep my body fit and healthy. I started P90X this week and I need a good Jog bra as my tits hurt when jumping.

Onehanesplace

Hanes Tagless Cami $9.99

2011-05-27T10:31:00.007-05:00

I’m back I had to lower my hormones due to stock issues meaning I had to order more and lowered my amount to allow me to make it thru this dry period. Seems my hormones are hard to find. But a new shipment is on its way yea...

Other than the hormones things are good I picked up a couple of pairs of jeans as my old Boy jeans had holes in them and could not wear them to work.

So I purchased some jeans on Amazon (My favorite place to shop) and when they arrived they were way too big for me.

Tops seem to be easier to fit then jeans. I wanted low rise Jeans that allows for more butt coverage but low in the front.

I sent back the jeans to Amazon and went shopping in the mall, Ok I hit all the major stores Sears, JC Penny s and so on but found only mid-rise Jeans I guess low-rise are not in fashion but I had to have them. Finally found several versions at Dillards.

First pair were Levis 524, Skinny Flare these are ultra low rise and my size is a junior 7 long, though I picked up a pair of 9’s as well. Trying them on was a hassle as I’m still not passible by face so I had to carry the jeans to the mens dept to try them on.

Anyway they are great and at $29.00 not bad but not the cheapest but wow they are wonderful and i feel so hot in them. I had to wear my ultra low Boy panties with them as I know my pink thong would stick out the back side.,

Over all I love em and if your interested in getting women or Juniors jeans be sure to try them on as just like mens jeans each pair fits differently.

Will report on the other jeans in a few days maybe some pictures with me in them :-)

Been a while

2011-05-07T12:51:00.002-05:00

Hi all,

its been a while since I posted, been really busy with work and family. I did want to post a quick update and will be posting more but things are going good. I’m up to 5 Mg of estrogen and things are changing. So much estrogen in the body has caused my sexual desires to go in the tank, but over health is good.

Breasts are slow to grow but my body has gained a little weight in the thighs and butt as expected. Switched my diet and started doing squats and ab workouts to battle the flabby feeling. Still have so much work to do to get to the girl I want to be.

Found a new lingerie website that I have added to the links on the right. I saw this picture and thought wow I love this little outfit for sleeping and lounging around on a Sunday.

Farr West full slip

2011-03-12T18:34:00.002-06:00

Ok one more post, This slip arrive last weekend and i spent Saturday lounging around on the couch watching sappy movies and drinking wine. The slip fits my shape as well as my breasts and with the lace at the bottom feels so good. I’m a slip lover and this one is a little pricy but feels so good. I sometimes spend the big money for good lingerie and I liked this one so much had to buy it.

Farr West: Sheer Georgette Mid-Thigh Slip

$60.00 Bare Necessities

Lands End tank top

2011-03-12T18:18:00.003-06:00

Hi ladies,

Sorry its been a few weeks since I posted been really busy with work and normal life stuff. Now normally I would blog about girly things but today is going to be different. I might be a girl on the inside but I’m still a techie as well.

I hung out to get the new IPAD2 and I know most of you have heard the news and I will not bore you with the tech specs but I did want talk about strange things that happen while waiting in line.

Of course I’m not passible yet but took a chance in dressing a little different I put on my normal panties and camisole but took the chance and wore a girly tank top and my girl jeans and headed to the mall. I also added some really sweet smelling perfume.

As I arrived there were a ton of people and I joined the line. My tank top has thin straps and you could see the straps from my camisole. I kept adjusting and my little tities were larger than normal maybe from progesterone but anyway. I was surrounded by geeky guys and all they talked about was Apple products and the IPAD2.

As soon as I walked up they looked at me and I could tell they could smell my perfume. They all turned to start talking to me about tech and I was really enjoying the attention was unsure if they could tell. The guy behind me kept moving closer and I could smell his cologne.

I spent the next three hours talking and it seemed like the guys were flirting with me. Unsure if my pheromones have changed to female as as these guys just wanted to talk with me and not each other.

I’m not really into guy I’m a trans-lesbian but it felt really good to be liked without doing anything. Now I still have a hair cut of a guy as well I let my face hair grow out a little to hide my looks.

I had a good time and really enjoyed hanging out for the new IPAD2 and it rocks btw.

Lands' End Women's Petite Lightweight Cotton Modal Tank Top

$14.50 Amazon

Mini Skirt

2011-02-12T16:07:00.005-06:00

I really like slutty outfits, I bought this a year ago from Yandy.com and for 19 Bucks its not much but wow does it accent my butt as well hide my clitty. When you bend over you can see my panties..

I wanted pink but all they had was black.. Looks like the pink one is in stock.. Really fun to wear..

Breathe by Barely There Boy Short

2011-01-26T11:06:00.000-06:00

Even though I did a review of the barely there collection I tried something that normally I would not. I have bought boy short panties before even though they are nice they never held my balls in. So as I walked my balls would fall out of the side of the panties.

But in this case these I had no problem with my balls or cock falling out. Very comfortable as well fitted and snugs you. These are everyday ware panties and fit without an issue. They come in Pink, White, Taupe and black.

Prices are not bad at $7.49 but One Hanes Place offers deals at times and reduces shipping or 20% off. Good to be on their mailing list. Delivery is fast and never had a problem.

COCO BRIEFS

2011-01-15T11:56:00.001-06:00

E-Lady is an Europe company that sells lingerie and they have a pair of panties to die for, I have not ordered from them yet but plan on it. I thought I would post the site in my links side as well post a picture of these wonderful panties.. OMG they are so sheer. I do not know the conversion rate between Europe and America but they show £9.99

2PC.Striped fishnet mini dress with g-string O/S BLACK/PINK

2010-12-09T11:37:00.000-06:00

Ordered this on Amazon last year as I was looking for a fun little number to play dress up in, Amazon shipped without an issue. When it arrived it was balled up in the package and I had to kind of expand it. The material is fishnet and again I had issues with my nipples coming thru the material. Very sex and covered my arms. The thong was so so and its a little hard to get into. Once on it looks hot.

Overall I liked it the price is $15.00 - $18.00. Amazon still carries it and has a few reviews. I really this outfit but again the nipple issue is a problem for me.

Barely There Panties by Hanes

2010-12-01T10:57:00.000-06:00

I really like the Barely There Panties collection there are way too many panties to review and I have bought most of them. Some if not all have the microfiber material and feels wonderful the styles range from thongs to full size panties. They work well under jeans and are more for everyday wear.

Prices are not bad at $7.49 but One Hanes Place offers deals at times and reduces shipping or 20% off. Good to be on their mailing list. Delivery is fast and never had a problem.

Joe Boxer Women's Assorted Satin Bikini - 4-pack

2010-11-01T10:40:00.000-05:00

These are sold from Kmart online only and have a great reviews from many Cross-dressers. The panties are really comfortable as well look really hot. I used them for those times i want to wear something sexy. I do not use them for masturbation but more just to feel good. You can wear them backwards as well but they have enough room to hold a limp cock. They are so pretty and really hug your butt without binding.

They are a great deal at 4 Panties for $8.00 and they are assorted colors you never know what colors you will get.

Note though they tend to run small. I normally wear a 6 from Hanes but a 6 was really tight and then ordered a 9 and they were semi big. But roomy and feel and look so good worth the buy.

Music Legs Seamless Black Lace Long Sleeved Turtleneck Mini Dress

2010-10-06T11:24:00.001-05:00

i ordered this from Amazon as I was looking for a fun little number to play dress up in, Amazon shipped without an issue. When it arrived it was balled up in the package and I had to kind of expand it. The material is nylon but stretchy and I wanted a short fun dress that would cover my arms as I have old tattoos.

Overall I liked it but the price of $22.84 was a little much. As well looking on amazon they are not selling it anymore so i suggest looking around for other retail stores. it is fun to wear and feels wonderful. if your like me I have huge nipples and they poke thru the material.

Bali Lacy Skamp Hikini Panty

2010-10-01T10:20:00.000-05:00

Bali Lacy Skamp Hikini Panty

I really like this panty its another that can be worn under warmups as well as shorts. The best part of these panties is that they are stretchy material an feel wonderful to the skin. The elastic next to the legs can be binding esp if you shave. I wear them backwards as I love the feeling of the panty riding up and spreading my buns. As well when getting a hard on you cock fills the material and it pushes back so it gets wonderful feeling. I normally will put a slip or long camisole in between my cock and the panty. This puts my cock surrounded by nylon and makes for a great feeling as I get hard.

Style is very pretty if wore the normal way lace at the top is large and you can pull these panties up high. I really like these and ware them when at home.. For those opportunities that I play around yet no one knows.

Also comes in white, Mocha, Black

Price is not bad at $7.00 but One Hanes Place offers deals at times and reduces shipping or 20% off. Good to be on their mailing list. Delivery is fast and never had a problem.

Bali Nylon panty

2010-09-01T10:05:00.000-05:00

This is basically the best panty for lounging or sleeping in as there is more then enough room for a hard on as well the nylon really feels wonderful. The panty can be shifted from pulling it up high to even low. Also the material covers your buns and if shift low allows for a wonderful feeling of your buns bounce in the nylon.

Looks are so so, This panty I think is better for under warmups or loose shorts. Or just those times where you want to play but not show that your playing.

Price is not bad at $7.00 but One Hanes Place offers deals at times and reduces shipping or 20% off. Good to be on their mailing list. Delivery is fast and never had a problem.

Cinema Etoile Women's Chiffon Babydoll with Lace

2010-08-26T12:09:00.000-05:00

Bought on Amazon I wanted a little out fit for fun, I liked the panties that came with it and it is very sheer. It has a few strings hanging off of it I clipped those and nothing else was wrong. Amazon price $19.20

When it all started

2010-08-20T20:59:00.000-05:00

Hello all and welcome

This site is dedicated to lingerie, wearing, buying and good deals as well as sex.

Note Im a straight heterosexual male and not BI or Gay, When someone hears that your are a cross-dresser the first thing they ask is are you gay. There are millions of men who cross-dress like me and are straight males in most cases married with children.

How lingerie came into my life..

Been a cross-dressing since the age of 10, Just like all normal boys I found masturbating was fun and one of my favorite things to masturbate too was the Sears catalog the lingerie section. Then it happened I was watching my adopted mother getting dress and she was moving around the room in panties and bra, Then she slid pantyhose on and then a slip. I had a major boner after watching this.

I was not attracted to my adopted mother but the lingerie she was wearing, Once my parents left I stripped down and while jerking off opened my mothers lingerie draw. My hand slid over the soft and silky material. I pulled a slip up an it slide against my body.. My cock jump and as I started to rub the material against my skin my cock started to pre-cum. I then pulled a pair of granny panties from the draw and as I slid each leg in the material I felt a rush of excitement. I could feel cool soft nylon on my body. Once I pulled the panties all the way up my cock was standing straight up and my boner was straining the material. I then put on a bra of course it did not fit but it was exciting and I felt so sexy.

As I walked in the bathroom to look in the mirror my cock was sliding side to side and the material was so soft I was looking at myself dressed up just the like women in the catalog and I started to hump the air and standing in front of the mirror I could see my self fucking air, My cock exploded with a huge pulse and seeing my cum splash the top of the panties and my hips were bucking. I could not move I just stood there looking at myself my cock slowly shrunk and the panties were covered in cum.

I removed the panties and started to jerk off with the slip and came again. I kept fucking the lingerie and each time I put on an article of clothing my cock would stand back up and ready for more. At that point I knew that lingerie was the key to my life and sexuality.

Over the years I had stolen my mothers lingerie and would wear panties to school and dress up late in the evening when everyone is in bed. Though several years past and it was one of those late night dress up parties and my mom must have heard me moving around as I was dancing in lingerie with a boner and my mom came in to my room and saw me. I stood there with a hard on making the slip look like it had a tent pole. She smiled and did not say anything just shut the door.. I was so scared and yet excited at the same time, I laid on the bed and start to hump the pillow thru the slip and came hard and fell asleep.

The next few weeks were weird as my bedroom shared a bathroom and it was the only bathroom that had a tub. My mom would take her baths in the evening and would wake me up hearing the bath running. I took a chance and got out of bed walked over to the door and it was ajar I could see in the bathroom my mom was getting undressed. As she undressed I was massaging my cock thru my granny panties and see her in bra and panties was a turn on. Looking back I’m really glad I was adopted but once she removed her bra I would loose it. It seemed that she kept the door ajar for me to watch her I tested the theory a few weeks later by shutting the door and making sure it was closed and then saw the light come on and then heard her shutting the other door but my door cracked open. I know this sounds weird but back in the day there was no internet and no access to real porn just catalogs. But since she really was not my mother I did not feel so bad about it.

Weeks past and every evening that she took a bath I would jerk off watching her strip. I was in my room playing and my mom came in and sat on the bed and then asked me if I had her lingerie. I had a puzzled look on my face and she said that she was missing several slips and panties. I was so scared and she said its all right but I needed to wash them and she said that if I put them in the dirty clothes bin that she would wash them and return to me. I felt like a big weight was lifted and I felt like I was accepted. But she also noted that I better not let dad know as he would get angry.

Over the years my mom was washing my lingerie well it really was hers but she would wash the slips and panties and then put them back in my underwear draw.

Anal sex occurred later in life thru my exploration sex and i will document this later in the blog.